The problem with me is that things were going very nicely until the spectre of what to do about being transgender reared its ugly head. Palaver is empty talk, hot air and in a sense discussion that goes over and over the same ground to no effect.
I have discussed the transition problem with my doctor who is also a psychiatrist who sent me to a pyschosexual counsellor who "might be able to help". A very nice lady psychosexual counsellor she is too but after a couple of sessions she didn't think there was anything that she could help with. The only useful result from the two sessions is that she was able to tell me that there is no consultant for my area so treatment is suspended. Not blocked, of course, because that would be illegal, just suspended. I thought it pointless to ask her how long she thought it might be for a consultant to be appointed when treatment is low priority.
The appointment with a psychiatrist arrived the week after. I arrived at the clinic five minutes early only to find out that the psychiatrist's office was not in the clinic but a different building altogether. I hotfooted it round to the right building in the car and got there 5 minutes late. The receptionist looked surprised to see me. The eyebrows flying upwards to hide in her fringe said it all, "but he's gone, 5 minutes ago!" she exclaimed. She thought I had the wrong time or date so I showed her my letter. She could not explain to me why she wasn't expecting a 4pm appointment or why he had walsed off home.
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That's rough. I had to wait an hour for my psych last time I saw him but at least he turned up.
ReplyDeleteI was talking to a t-girl from Wales last weekend, she'd moved to England to solve the problem with NHS provision there, something not everyone can do.
Hi Jenny, yes, moving to England is one way to get out of the insanity if there's nothing else preventing you from going ahead with transition. Doubt if he can help but I've been allocated another appointment with him this Weds afternoon.
ReplyDeleteGood luck. I find the more opportunities I get to sit down and talk to professionals the better, even if it doesn't always immediately seem as though I've benefited.
ReplyDeleteWednesday we were 7 minutes late, our clock was a tad out, he had gone home two minutes before we arrived so I still haven't seen him.
ReplyDeleteI'm very glad to hear talking it through with a pro has been of benefit for you. We have to find what helps, and also what to avoid or be prepared in advance to counteract.
Weirdly I'm finding having to talk about it to professionals only makes me feel ratty. The best thing I've found is to keep my brain engaged on more enjoyable things and I feel more like my happy old self.